As this is my very first blog, I thought it would be best used by telling you a bit about myself. My name is Emily Lois Rigby, and I’m a 17 year old girl living in the UK. I study Construction at college and aspire to be a Quantity Surveyor in the future. The reason I’ve decided to begin blogging is to learn more about myself and share my experiences with others. My hobbies include mainly going to the gym, however I sometimes go climbing. I’m in love with fascinating architecture, and my favourite city is Bordeaux in France. I speak both Welsh and English fluently. I would describe myself as confident and outgoing, and very motivated when it comes to things I enjoy. This blog will be based on my life and my beliefs, and I hope it’s interesting to other people. I’m aware that this was a very brief overview of me as a person, but I don’t think there’s any need to go too much into detail as you will learn more and more as my blog grows😊
I finally took the first step of getting better today. I saw the College counsellor and told her almost everything.
She believes I have depression which is no surprise to me.
The only difficulties about getting better are:
1. Not knowing if you want to get better, and,
2. Not understanding how simple conversation can help your mental state.
I’m failing to grasp the concept of life anymore.
What’s the point? We all just go about our day to day lives, all waiting until the weekend?
I feel miserable. I feel like I make the people around me miserable. Why do we all torture ourselves every day?
Days like these make death feel so welcoming.
Here I am, at 3pm on a Monday, when I should be in college I find myself still in bed after a sleepless night. I didn’t have the will power to get up and go to school for two reasons, firstly because I couldn’t deal with people telling me I look tired and rough, and secondly because I didn’t want to face the music from my lecturers that I still haven’t completed assignments that should’ve been done weeks ago. I thought I was better but I find myself in the same patterns as I’ve been in before. Why am I so unmotivated when I know exactly what I want to do with my life. I wish I was the type of person who could actually get on with work when they try to, and not just stare at a blank screen for hours and have some sort o a mental block.
This is a topic I feel very strongly about as I have mental health issues myself. Something needs to be changed to improve the mental health care system in the UK. The only time they listen or will even acknowledge you is if you hurt yourself physically, no matter how much pain you’re feeling mentally. It really saddens me that young teenagers go looking for help, screaming for attention and someone to care, and get turned away. The issue with the mental health care is that people aren’t treated when problems arise, and when these problems spiral out of control, rehabilitation takes such a long time that other people can’t be seen. Mental health can’t and shouldn’t be ignored. Mental health is just as important as physical health and can lead people out of work or bed ridden for months.